Sep 27 2008
LIKE TENDERIZED MEAT
Yesterday i got my yearly physical and I’m healthy as a horse. I got the TDap shot and a Tb skin test done. I had no idea i was going to feel this crappy. This morning my right arm which had the shot hurt like hell and i could barely lift it. I’m aching all over,my joints hurt,my back and everything else even my hair hurts,lol. I felt like a sledgehammer was taken to me and pounded me like i was some meat to be tenderized. I feel so crappy and to top it off i couldn’t really rest. There is no rest when you have a 5 yr old and an 11 month old. Husband felt so bad for me as he had to work while I’m left alone with the kids. In the afternoon it got so bad,i thought i was going to pass out in front of my 5 yr old from exhaustion and drowsiness. I was battling with myself if i should lay down with the baby but what about Kayla? I went in mother in laws room but she was sleeping. I was near tears,i wanted so bad to lie down and just snooze for 30 min. I told my stepdaughter that i would be right back after i put baby sister to bed. She was so good and so behaved,she just watched television and played with her toys. As soon as my head hit the pillow i fell asleep,the baby didn’t fall asleep right away but she eventually drifted off. I woke up after 1 1/2 hr, i was horrified. Since,baby was still sleeping i went downstairs to check on Kayla she was just playing and the family room was still intact,lol. While i was upstairs my mother in law did check on her and listened to her. After my nap i was a little bit better but still sore and achy. I never want to feel like this again. The feeling of helplessness and guilt.
Ill end this note here and write more tomorrow. My aching bones and joints need some much needed rest and ill have to wake up bright and early again tomorrow with the kids. Life,it goes on over and over again.
