parentinglife

The subject for today is why i got my daughter’s ears pierced at such a young age. Kaitlyn got her ears pierced when she was only 3 months old? Why? since she was still young she wont be able to touch nor pull on both of her ears resulting to the piercing getting infected. It will be easier for me to take care of the cleaning and sanitizing of her earrings while her mobility was still restricted and i wanted her to get so used to them that they will feel like part of herself. We got Kaitlyn’s ears pierced when we didn’t have Kayla since she has not had her ears pierced and i didn’t want her mother to think that we encourage or even let Kayla see it being done in case she would want one herself without her mother’s consent. It was a rainy afternoon and i was coming down with a fever which i thought was cold but turned out to be mastitis due to the baby kicking my boob while i was bathing her and it got infected. Going back, we went to this mall and my heart was thumping so fast that i thought everyone could her each beat. I told Ralph i will not hold the baby since i  didn’t want to see her cry or look of pain. As it turned out, I ended up holding her since she was wriggling to much in Ralph’s arms looking for me. As i held her i felt guilty and i wanted to stop and just tell Ralph to forget about it. She was getting her tiny little ears pierced for another selfish reason that i have. I didn’t want people mistaking her for a boy. Holding her close to my chest she leaned back to trusting and quite and curios about what the lady is doing to her ear. When it was time i closed my eyes, the sound of the clicking ear gun resonated through my whole body as if i was electrocuted. I wanted to cry and scream with her and just take her away. She cried so much and looked at me with such pain in her eyes. I ask, how could i do this to her? Did i do the right thing? The whole day i was crying inside and wracked with so much guilt. As i put her on my breast i kissed her forehead and hushed her to sleep. I confessed that i was selfish for doing this to her, I told her i was sorry for her pain. She trustingly laid in my arms while sucking on my breast. She forgave me and and somehow it comfort me to know that she will probably never remember the incident but it will forever be etched in mine.