Jan 25 2009
WONDERING QUESTIONS
Its almost a year now that Ralph and I have been trying to conceive again. It was so easy the first time that i caught me off guard. Now that i really want to get pregnant it doesn’t seem like its going to happen. Every month i just get depressed when i find out I’m not pregnant yet again. It makes me question that maybe something is wrong with me this time, that maybe I’m only meant to have one child. I would really love to have another child. Ralph has been telling me that it will happen and i should not worry or get sad when its not happening. Then i get angry at myself for doubting God and questioning Him. I know that He has a plan for everything and everyone and maybe God thinks that were not ready to have another child yet, that maybe Kaitlyn is still not ready for another little brother or sister, or maybe my body is not ready as of yet. Those are just wondering questions that come across my mind when i start thinking about having another baby. By the end or first week of next month we will finally know if im pregnant or not. If not, i should just be thankful that God already blessed Ralph and I with one child.
I’m sorry things aren’t going according to your plans and you’re feeling a little bummed about it.
I agree that God is in control and thankfully, has already blessed you with one miracle. But, that doesn’t mean you (and your husband) shouldn’t go get yourself checked out at a fertility clinic or participate in a helpful fertility plan, if necessary. The medical field tells us that this should occur if you have been trying to get pregnant for a year and haven’t. Since you’re approaching that time, maybe you and your husband can consider taking the next step.
A friend of mine struggled with whether God wanted her to have children because it wasn’t happening. She finally found out it wasn’t going to happen without medical intervention. After the tears and then realization that maybe this was God’s way of saying “Yes, I do want you to have children. You’re just going to have to work a little harder for them”, she went through IVF. She now has 2 beautiful, healthy, and wonderful boys (twins).
Her story has already blessed another lady in our church who kept waiting for it to happen naturally after TEN years. My friend inspired her to get medical assistance, and now she’s pregnant with twins.
My point is that God can use medicine and DOES. He told us to be fruitful and multiply. Modern medicine has made that possible for many, who once upon a time, wouldn’t have had the option.
Be encouraged. Keep me posted.
Davida