parentinglife

Today we went to Angelo’s house for his belated 43rd birthday celebration. It was just MIL, baby and I that went on an hour’s drive since Ralph will be working tonight. I finally met Wendy the girlfriend of my nephew Andrew, she is 5 months pregnant. When I saw her I felt a this tiny green head sprouting over my shoulder. Its name was envy, she was whispering in my ears that I should be jealous with Wendy since she was pregnant. I must admit, envy got to me and I looked at Wendy’s expanding belly and said to myself that It could have been me that is expecting right now. It should have been my belly getting round with a life inside of me. But wait, I could not let envy get deeper into my thought. I must not let her ruin that fact that I was genuinely happy for both Andrew, Wendy and the rest of the family. I gave her a big hug and put my hand on her belly. When I placed my hand on her stomach I remembered how it was before Kaitlyn was born. I do want a baby but only if God will permit it. If not at least I already have Kaitlyn and Kayla the one born from my heart. Both Ralph and I are still hopeful that we will have a new addition to the family soon. Envy must not get into my mind, I have to accept and be thankful for what I have. She has no place in my life right now.