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I just watched the episode of House M.d where Dr. Kuttner portrayed by Kal Penn got killed off. I did not like the episode one bit and still question why they had to write off his death like that. Why couldn’t't they make up a story that he got hit by a car, killed due to a virus or something, moving to another hospital but suicide? For me it was just out of context and they did it to soon, way to soon. While watching the show I felt there was something missing, it was the witty sense of humor of Kal Penn. Like House, I was really hoping that Kal Penn did get murdered by someone. I was really with House on that one. As for Dr. House, he is still asking questions and find no answer.

To Kal Penn I will miss your character Dr. Kuttner on House M. D, its not going to be the same without you. You exchange fame and fortune to help serve the people and I salute for that. I will look forward to your return to the limelight and maybe a sequel to Harold and Kumar…

Yesterday I found out that one of my favorite actors in a T.V series is leaving. I was so bummed out last night and still am. I could not help but call my sister and tell her about the terrible news.

As my previous post here, I love watching House M.d  one of my favorite shows that I watch and talk about with my sister. Kal Penn who plays Dr. Kutner one of House’s team is leaving the show. Yes, he is leaving the show to go into public serve and work in the White House. What got me so upset was the way he left the show. He left the show via Suicide…There are so many options for him to leave the show why did they have to go for suicide? I’m so against that.Why oh why did he have to go. I first noticed Kal Penn in Van Wilder and of course the ever famous Harold and Kumar, I love that movie. Its my husband and my favorite. House is not going to be the same without Kutner and I’m so afraid of watching the episode. Why? I may hate Kal Penn for the way he dies there. I’m still venting and ranting I cant get over it!!!!!!

Kal Penn why do you have to leave??!!!!!

Today we went to Angelo’s house for his belated 43rd birthday celebration. It was just MIL, baby and I that went on an hour’s drive since Ralph will be working tonight. I finally met Wendy the girlfriend of my nephew Andrew, she is 5 months pregnant. When I saw her I felt a this tiny green head sprouting over my shoulder. Its name was envy, she was whispering in my ears that I should be jealous with Wendy since she was pregnant. I must admit, envy got to me and I looked at Wendy’s expanding belly and said to myself that It could have been me that is expecting right now. It should have been my belly getting round with a life inside of me. But wait, I could not let envy get deeper into my thought. I must not let her ruin that fact that I was genuinely happy for both Andrew, Wendy and the rest of the family. I gave her a big hug and put my hand on her belly. When I placed my hand on her stomach I remembered how it was before Kaitlyn was born. I do want a baby but only if God will permit it. If not at least I already have Kaitlyn and Kayla the one born from my heart. Both Ralph and I are still hopeful that we will have a new addition to the family soon. Envy must not get into my mind, I have to accept and be thankful for what I have. She has no place in my life right now.

Today my grandmother turned 76 years old, if I’m not mistaken. There is a 12 hrs difference so I called her last night to wish her a happy birthday. I got so homesick hearing everybody talking in the background, I miss my grandparents so much. Ever since my grandparents have been getting older we always make it a point to celebrate there birthdays by coming together as a whole family. Its more like a family reunion twice a year, on January for my grandpa and March for my grandma. I got to talk to my mom and she missed me so much and almost begged for me and Kaitlyn to come home and visit her. She wants to hold me in her arms so bad and finally be able to meet her first grandchild. I almost cried when i heard the longing in her voice. After almost 3o minutes of talking and being passed from one person to another I called Ralph and told him what my mother and I talked about. Ralph felt bad that I could not go home and  visit my mom. When we hang-up he immediately went online while he was at work to check on airfares. He called me back again and told me that maybe we could make arrangement  for me and Kaitlyn to go back home. As much as I would love to go home, its not practical at this time. We need all the money we can get. I know in my heart that one day soon I will be able to visit home and see my loved one again. I don’t know when but soon.

 Its been a known fact that many people, young, old, have used Suicide as an escape. Suicide was once in my head and in my thoughts. I, to was young and stupid and a coward. I was depressed with a lot of things and I wanted to escape those feeling of helplessness, sadness, and pain. I never did try and do it. Why? Fear itself was my enemy. I was afraid of the pain that I would have to go through.

It was actually the death of my beloved cat that snapped me out of this suicide thinking mode when i was in my early 20’s. My cat Rumm died, he got hanged by the little leash I tied around his neck. The leash was not tight at all, he could easily shrug his head and it would come off. He was fighting off some other cats trying to eat his food and I guess he probably feel down the steps. Until now I cant stop the image of my beloved cat hanging by the stairs, its orange head to the side. He just died when I got to him. I screamed bloody murder that day. Cried buckets and rolled on the floor with him clutched in my arms. I did try to revive him by giving him mouth to mouth but to no avail. I could not bear to let him go, I just kept on hugging and kissing him willing my warmth and my breath into his body. It was only when my step dad  talked me into giving him the cat to be buried did I realize he was already starting to get stiff in my arms. With a heavy heart I breathed him in one last time, brushed his silky fur and kissed his head goodbye. I locked myself in my room and just cried. My mother knocked on my door and came in the room. I knew she was afraid that I was going to kill myself. Little did she know that what just happened did the opposite thing to me.

That was the day God reminded me that life was precious. From that day on I have never entertained the thought of cowardly ending my life by suicide. I thought about my mom, sister and how it would destroy them. How I would be able to face God and tell him I took the most precious gift he ever gave me.  Death itself has his own way of coming for us. I hope not to meet the bringer of death anytime soon.

I don’t know about some people here in Today but i have been getting spam comments. Its very annoying and irritating. Is there  anything i need to do to stop this spam comments? I have never had any problem like this on my other blogs. Have you gotten any spam comments? Its just annoying when i get a mail telling me that someone has left a comment on my post, i get all excited to find out what they had to say but as it turns out its just spam comments from other site.

I have been blogging for today for some time now but i still haven’t gotten the hang of how things work and it still confuses me. Maybe i need to pay more attention and find out how things really work around here.  And I know for a fact that I have not really made some quality post for a while and I apologize for that. I’m going to try and change that. Well for me what happens in our day to day life is quality for me. My blog is about parenting life, my life as a parent, my struggles and my joys. It may not be interesting to some but that is my life.

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EARTH WIND AND FIRE

* LETS GROOVE TONIGHT *

I love this song, make me want to jump up and do the groove. Love listening to music from the 60’s-80’s, its just different. Those were music that you always hear at disco houses. I was born on the last 70’s and i don’t know where i got my love for those music. Maybe those were the songs that were constantly played in our house, in the radio or on television. The songs back then was what you would call music not like today’s music where almost everyone is screaming or shouting. Even the clothes were different back then as you can see in the music video. There wasn’t much skin exposed or lots of girls grinding with skimpy clothes. It was all about the music and the singer.

Eating healthy has never been my thing. Back home i thought i ate pretty healthy since i was not fat. I use to eat like there was no tomorrow that i would have to double over after eating since i could not stand straight up from eating too much. My friends asks how i could stay as skinny as i was while eating to much. I think it was young age and my metabolism was at its peak. It was before i turned 23 yrs old that i started to gain weight really fast without me knowing it. I had been staying for almost a 2 months at my grandmother’s place for the summer and eating heavy breakfast every single day. Finally i noticed i was fat and my oh my was i shocked, lol. I lost weight by minimizing my intake of rice and leaving the table as soon as i was done eating. I lost the weight in probably less than 3 weeks. I thought i was going to get compliments from my friends but instead they got worried about my health. One even went so far as to ask if i was sick and told me that i looked better and more beautiful with a little bit of weight. You can never please anybody, lol.

Here is see most Americans eat salads at home, workplace even at the restaurant. MIL would ask me why i would not eat salad and this was my reply to her ” I’m not a cow “, i of course explained to her that since salad is green it makes me think of grass. Lately though i have been craving so much for salad with vinegar, oil and garlic as a dressing. I could eat half a lettuce at one sitting, i swear. From a girl who use to think that eating salad was for cow, i was eating more than my MIL. She said that maybe I’m pregnant that’s why I’m craving for salads since i never use to eat it. I hope it was true that I’m pregnant but i don’t think so, i wish i was.

Waiting for some spark of idea to light up in my head, i sit here pondering about nothing. There are just time that i don’t have any clue as to what I’m doing,thinking or what to do next. I often wonder what my life was 10 years ago, when i was still young and carefree.

Ten years ago i was young, free to do anything i want. Didn’t take responsibility was to much, not thoughts of the future. I could just sleep and wake up when i wanted, dinner cooked for me by my sister and just be me. I have forgotten how it was before, my thoughts are in rambles as i wrack my brain with memories. For some reason i cant remember when i want to but if i don’t i suddenly remember. I know I’m confusing that why I’m never going to be a writer. My thoughts are everywhere and putting it in one pile is a task that i myself don’t even want to tackle. Letting my mind work as it is de-stresses me and relaxes me to a point that i don’t even know what I’m thinking next. I’m starting to confuse myself right about now so ill just end this on a good note that I’m still here, i may not be single but i am clustered with love.